Change the Plan.
I hate the term "busy" when people use it as an excuse for not getting something done that they're supposed to. It's usually a good sign that whatever they are too busy to do is of less importance to them than whatever they were doing. But I have to say it: I have been busy. The problem is, I can't really tell you what has been taking up my time that overrides things that I should also be attending to, like this blog. There are days that just fly by and I have gotten nothing accomplished by the end of it other than feeding the children constantly and washing the dishes over and over again. I have so many days where there are loads of small gaps of time- 20 minutes in between one school drop off and another, for example- where I'm not able to actually get anything accomplished that requires a good chunk of time or a little peace and quiet, so I spend a lot of time drifting around the house, killing time.
Gus was on break this past week and I got way less done than I had planned to do, which was minimal to start with. I didn't set foot in my office all week other than to relocate things that belonged in there like receipts, or the new thread I purchased. The week before that was my birthday and we also had a string of company, and then Greta had an incident where she knocked a fresh cup of restaurant-temperature hot tea over and scalded her arm. She's fine and that actually looks way better than it did, but it was one of those unexpected things that just happens to knock a whole day out of whack, and those kinds of things seem to be happening a lot lately.
On top of it, I am comparing what I am doing and managing to get done to what others are. My social media feeds are full of people starting new projects, getting major tasks accomplished, producing new lines of goods, getting stuff listed, and making big sales. I feel like I am falling farther and farther behind with the ideas that I have in my head as compared to the time and energy that I have to get them done. It makes me irritated and somewhat envious, but not of the actual "stuff", just the consistency with which others are able to work.
Then I have to remember that a lot of the people I follow are years (and years) younger than me, or just at a totally different stage of life. A lot of them don't have kids, and therefore have more interrupted time, perhaps, to work on things. I am not unhappy, in the general sense of things- by a long shot, but I do wish I had more time in the day, just in general. I want to put the ideas in my head into motion and see them come to life. I want to cross some of the major things off of my endless list- the things that just get pushed to the bottom because there isn't sufficient time to work on them properly. I am not wishing time away and if you want to tell me I'll miss these years when they're gone, you don't have to because I already know it. But if someone could just figure out how to add, like, four more hours to each day, that would be pretty awesome.
My plan now is to try and change up the plan, in order to give me a little more time each day to get something done, and hopefully earlier than 10 o'clock at night, which is when I'm writing this- a post that has been hanging out in my brain for weeks. I need to realign what tasks are getting done when the kids are home versus when they're both at school, like not reorganizing the medicine cabinet when I'm home alone but instead maybe, you know, making something. Time scheduling is an ever-evolving process around here, but one of these days I hope to get it figured out.
How have you all been lately? What's new in your life? I'd love to know that there are still people hanging out in here and I hope to find myself popping in more, too.
